Memoirs, Mails and Friends – Yaadein III

I got my mail id when I was in 11th standard. I still remember that I went with my friend Antony to create an email account to a net café. I started using mails frequently when I reached my college. It was during 2000 and the funda of unlimited storage or 8 gb storage was not in place. I remember that by 2004*, rediffmail have increased the capacity of the storage to 1GB. Then on, I have never deleted my mails till now, if I feel it’s worthy to be retained. I have a strange character of deleting all mails and other contacts of those people whom I have an argument with, so that I can resist myself contacting them for any reason.

Today I accidentally logged into my old mail box which I still use for official purposes, our great Rediffmail. I was going through the mails and found the old mails which my friends sent to me. The oldest one I have in my mailbox was the one sent by Suthan after my exams. This was the one

hi kutta
how are encrypted & encrypted .
encrypted is fine . she asks u.
i told u r busy.
da give me a link 4 dloading phone dialer.
give ur yahoo id

poda patty.
see u.
byeeeeeeeee

I was very friendly with Malayalee NRI’s guys during my first and second year. I always felt that they keep a distance with me for several reasons. I think they had a feeling that I am not one among them. I still have a few of them as my close friends. Third year onwards I started hanging out with guys from my place and it was really different. We all enjoyed last two years. During our final years we need to do our academic project. I had committed to a few of my friends that I will join them for the project. They were really nice guys. We were a team of five including me, Anoop, Alex, Dubin and Thomas. Project itself was an adventure for us, which I would probably tell u some time later in another Yadeein.

After the exams everything was over. No more friends, no outing, no fun time. I missed all my friends in my college very badly. They were all helpful in several phases of my life. We decided to go to Bangalore in search of a Job. My Dad didn’t allow me to join them instead he insisted me to go to Pune. It was really a tough time then. No friends and others whom I considered important in my life and only ways of contacts was phone and mail.

I got a job the very first day I reached Pune. They offered me 1500 Rs as starting salary. I was upset and was thinking as if it was nothing and hence rejected the offer. My friends came to know about it and next few were the consolation mails especially few from Sreejith, Suthan, Pandian, Sithara. I often get upset about my state. I was into some unwanted instances of my life during that period. I was pressurized and next few mails were about it. Again comfort mails from Seena, Sithara , Sreejith, Rajesh and others. They were asking me face the situation bold and things will surely change once I attain the mental strength.

Next few mails were from Kiran, Pandian, Sreejith, Arun, Ramesh, Jegan, Kiran after I got placed in Wipro. Every one wanted to know about Wipro and how I got placed there. All were happy that I got placed soon. I was one among the first to get placed in a company and then many felt that the new job will help me avoid tension..

Now, when I recall those phases of my life, the tension that I underwent sans job, support of loved ones and at that very mode of life you guys turned out to be my only support. I often think about you guys. Few of you whom I normally contact are not in touch any more. I hope you are enjoying your life where ever you are. In course of time, I got several other friends were I turned to be their best comedian, fundoo, swamy , boon and curse but when I see those mails which you have send me, it reminds me about our friendship, about our fun we had.

I am never content about any of my achievements. I always feel that I have achieved nothing and never learned to appreciate myself for my achievements. When compared to the state I was in 2004 I am in a much better position.. I felt the current situation is worse for me, but the reminiscence of those days’s loneliness makes me realize that I have gone through worse situations in my life. Now I stay with my Grandmother and never worried about my food, I work in a MNC, I am not bothered about those hi-fi people who roam around in Tech Parks, and have a beautiful girl waiting to be mine. I thank God for all these. At least for a day, he made me think that I am doing better.

I thank you guys who were with me in tougher situations which are not mentioned in this post, I feel so great to have you guys as my friends.